Happy Monday,
How is everyone doing today? Our long weekend is coming to an end, and though I hate to see it go, I’m excited to get back to my normal routine. How about you? Are you having the best day and how was your long weekend? Shoot me a message or drop me a comment and let me know. I would love to hear from you.
I thought I’d jump right into the blog today. Something was said to me the other day and it’s really been weighing on me. You see, I was told that there’s no heaven and we live in hell. I asked this person, how can you have one without the other, that makes no sense to me. He said, God has given up on us and he’s just letting us “burn” in hell. He then went onto tell me he doesn’t believe in God anymore, but he believes in Satan the Devil. Again, I questioned this, how can you have one without the other? He said Satan is evil and we live in an evil society, and we are worse than Sodom and Gomorrah. I told him for me, I can’t believe in one without the other. With that being said, I don’t believe hell is a place of burning torment. The God I believe in is a loving God, even towards those that don’t believe in him.
I asked a friend of mine the other day what his thoughts were as far as mankind living in hell. He said, things are worse than they were perhaps forty years ago, and he supposes we could be living in a type of hell.
Now I have two people who can see that mankind is living in hell. I’m still struggling with this concept a little bit, and then, something was presented to me that gave me a different perspective or hope on the matter. “Heavin is this moment. Hell is the burning desire for this moment to be different. It’s that simple.”-Jeff Foster. My aha moment. There are so many moments in my life that are amazing. Hearing the voice of one of my sons, watching my pups run together, being with family and friends, having a home where I feel safe, being in the arms of the man I love, being kissed by him, making love, those are all moments that I feel like I’m in heaven and the opposite of that is, when I let my mind get the best of me. When I overthink something to the point it consumes me and I allow it to take over my sound reasoning and all I see is the negative, that’s my hell and it’s my burning desire for the moment I’m living in to be different.
While I don’t believe in an actual burning hell, I do think I believe we all go through times where we feel as though we are in hell. For the person who told me he believes this is hell that we all live in, I have to disagree. Sure, we all face difficulties and some worse than others and I never want to minimize what someone is going through. Times are hard and can be overwhelming, like there’s no way out. I can’t imagine how people get through certain challenges, and I’m shocked I got through some of mine. In all honesty, I’m surprised that I am still here to tell my own story.
There was a time when I thought the only way out was to not exist. There was a time when I would pray every night not to wake up the next day, yet God saw something in my future that I couldn’t even comprehend, and now that six years has come and gone, I am grateful that my life has gotten better and I’m still here to tell my story.
My prayers were answered, though not in the way I wanted at the time, they were answered. I used to pray to God to let me know what it was like to feel loved, just once in my life, I wanted to know what it felt like to feel loved. Now, I have Martin in my life, and I’ve felt love more than once by this incredible man.
The words written by Jeff Foster really touched my heart, “hell is the burning desire for this moment to be different.” I think the person who told me we are living in hell just wants things to be different for once in his life and he deserves that one little break to make his life a little better. It saddens me knowing those I love and care about struggle with so much darkness. I haven’t walked in their shoes, nor do I walk in yours, so to say I completely understand your “hell or heaven”, I can’t totally relate, however, I can tell you, don’t give up, you are worth so much. I can say this because I know for a fact, you are uniquely made. No two fingerprints are alike. “Always remember that you are absolutely unique. Just like everyone else.”- Margaret Mead.
I just loved that quote. Just like everyone else, we “are absolutely unique.” What does this have to do with heaven and hell? I suppose, it’s our outlook on life, it’s what path we are on, perhaps it’s the price we pay for certain choices, yet, what our life looks like today, heaven or hell, it doesn’t have to define us for the rest of our lives. I can’t believe just because I made one choice in life, I have to suffer or pay for it forever. I believe in a God, a Universe that is made up of love and though we as a world are facing certain types of hell, that can’t be all there is.
It’s hard sometimes to find the good, or appreciate what we have, I get that, I’ve been there, and I still struggle with keeping my mindset in check, but I will continue to work every day towards being the best I can be with the cards delt to me. When I find myself slipping into a dark place, I’m grateful that I have Martin. I’ve let my guard down enough with him that I no longer fight back his words of encouragement and sometimes words that don’t feel so good. He is honest with me and sometimes honesty, though it be for my best interest, the words hurt. I don’t like hearing that I’m taking something directly to the negative, I’d rather him jump on my pity party, or so I think at the moment, but when I shut my mouth, listen, he helps me evolve into a more clear-thinking person. He helps me find something good in the situation, or he tells me, “You can’t worry about what’s going to happen, because you don’t know, you just have to be prepared for whichever scenario will take place and be prepared to deal with it either way. It’s when he helps me readjust negative thoughts that I cannot dwell in hell, instead, I can turn my attention to something more positive and focus on that.
I don’t want to minimize what anyone is going through; I only hope through my writing I can give you a glimpse into looking at those horrific situations from a different point of view.
I once saw the world through a half empty glass, and now, I work hard at looking at the world through a half full glass. It’s sometimes in our perspective. I know too, that the reason I write my blogs and do my podcast is I have this passion for people and if I can make the difference in the life on one person, then I feel I’ve done what God, or the Universe wanted from me.
I hate thinking that people feel we live in hell. It hurts my heart to think someone feels that dark about life and I hope they find some sort of happiness soon.
My dear readers, I do hope you are having the greatest of days and until next time, open your hearts, listen and evolve today++
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