Happy Friday,
How are you all doing this fine Friday afternoon? All is good here. I’m currently in San Diego but will be going home tomorrow. Life’s been crazy lately, and that’s okay, challenges help us to grow. You see, Martin’s been a little on the sick side of things and it does worry me. I’m hoping after the tests he has this week we’ll have answers to get him back on track for a better, healthier life. I’ll keep you all posted on how he’s doing.
I wanted to tell you all something really cool that happened the other day. I was out walking Molly and a butterfly landed on my shoulder. It was only for a moment, but that moment was just what I needed. I’ve been telling Martin that I miss my daddy something fierce and I’ve been feeling a little blue because he’s not been here. He passed away two years ago, and I still miss him. I’m a little selfish in that I want him here with me, yet, I know, he’s in a better place now.
When dad first passed, I used to see butterflies all the time and over the last couple of months, I haven’t seen many. I ran a quick errand to Joann’s on Wednesday and in the floral section they were clearance some flowers and such, and I came across this really pretty purple and white floral arrangement with a purple butterfly on it. I looked through the entire department for another one, but could only find the one, so I held onto it because purple is my favorite color and the butterfly made me feel dad was near.
About two weeks ago, I was talking to one of my spiritual advisors and she was telling me that dad hung on as long as he could, and it was time for me to let him go. I told her dad used to always fly by and I knew he was near when I saw a butterfly. She said it was because he knew I couldn’t let go and he had to stay until he knew I would be okay. I prayed a lot that night after talking to Heather and the next morning, I told dad, “I’m okay, you can go now.” What I didn’t realize was, I still needed to know he was near, maybe not every day, but I needed to know, my daddy was near.
While walking her, with that butterfly landing on my shoulder I knew it was dad’s spirit stopping by to let me know, he was still around, but his time had come to go onto his next life, yet he would always come back if I truly needed him. The Universe gave me a gift and that gift was the little butterfly for a brief moment. It was a reminder from the Universe, that my daddy would always be near, if only in my heart, if only by the grace of a butterfly. Dad needed to go, he was suffering, and it was time for him to move on to the next life. I just felt so blessed to have that moment and I knew it was good to let dad go and be free to do what he needs to do. I know I’ll see butterflies come and go and it’s my comfort believing it will be my daddy coming to say hello.
“Butterflies From Heaven: When a butterfly comes to you, I’ve been told, that it’s from someone in heaven. A past soul. If you keep a look out, if you open your heart, the things that were ordinary will now stand apart. I think if we look, read between the lines, you will find clues and you will find signs, that your loved one isn’t past, not really, not gone. That they are not here, that they have just moved on. It is said that there is not death, just life and transitions, from the teachings of Buddha to the belief of the Christians. So, from my heart, from my hope and belief, may you find many butterflies to assist with your grief.”-Stephanie Laird. Isn’t this comforting? I know for me, I used to believe in a false hope that was told to me by a horrible cult/religion, and the belief I had, it never comforted me, it only made me live in the future, rather than the present and I still missed those that I loved who had passed on.
I’m not here to bash any religion/cult. I know the one I was so indoctrinated in; my mother is still heavily involved with. She hasn’t spoken to me in six years, and to her, I’m dead. I hurt for the longest time knowing I could never live up to her expectation, then one day, I realized. I have family, I have friends and I am living my best life. Sure, there are things I still want and need to accomplish, be it God’s will, but I am embracing the journey, and I am not focused on the destination, because I don’t know where my final destination will be and that’s the way it’s supposed to be.
I hope when you see a butterfly, a hummingbird or anything else that reminds you of a loved one that has gone, may you find comfort in knowing and believing they’ve come by to say hi. There is never a time limit on how long a person is allowed to grieve. I know for me, I’m usually okay, but there are days that it hits me, dad’s gone and though I try to remind myself he isn’t suffering anymore, my ego comes into play, and I become selfish, because I want him here with me. Then, I have to be reminded, he’s in God’s hands now and when I feel anger starting to fill my heart, a butterfly flies by as God’s reminder, it’ll all be okay. I’m here for you and your daddy will come by soon to say hello.
I’m thankful for the time I had with dad and from time to time, when my heart hurts because I have no parents, I’m reminded, I’m never alone. I have Martin, our boy’s, family, and some pretty amazing friends who we call, family, and just being with them, makes me happy.
Well guys, it’s time to head out to pick up a kiddo, so I will say goodbye for now and I hope you can open your hearts, listen and evolve today. Until next time, have a wonderful day, you deserve it.
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